Fun times...

Its definitely been awhile since i have updated this thing but there has been so much and not so much going on in the cameron household that i am just now trying to catch everyone up. What i mean is that we have been super busy the past few weeks but nothing big really going on just life. Scott and I have been super busy working and doing stuff at church. Macie is growing like a weed we can hardly keep up. I had to go out this past week and buy her new p.j's because the 3t's that she has doesnt fit anymore, whenever we put them on her she has high waters and her belly hangs out:) I dont know where she is getting this height thing from but its pretty funny to see how much taller she is than other kids her age. I was at the dr.s on friday and they were all floored at how tall she is. Yesterday macie and I had a pretty fun girls day together making cookies and putting barbie tattoos on. I can't say enough how much i love having a little girl. She is growing so quickly but we just have so much fun hanging out and being silly. After holding my new neice georgia this week i definitely miss having a little baby in the house but having a 3 year old is pretty great too. I was talking to someone the other day about how i would love to have another baby but as time goes by its easier and easier to be content with just one child because the thought of starting all the way over to having a baby is a little overwhelming. Macie is to the age where i can throw her in the car and we can go wherever, i dont have to worry about diaper bags or infant seats she is just my little side kick.









Scott and I went out last night to celebrate my birthday which was really great. My mom kept macie all night so we were able to just take our time and relax all evening. We went to polaris and ate at Carabas thanks to our good friends that gave us a giftcard for there. It was very good, the more I eat Italian food the more I think its becoming my favorite. After dinner we decided to come back home and rent a movie....which scott watched and I slept through most of, I just can't seem to stay away through movies at all anymore...maybe its my old age:) So after we picked macie up today we have just been hanging out around the house enjoying a chance to be home together for once without worrying about being here or there.

I know some of you have been asking about my dr.s appt. this past week and the update is that it was cancelled because he was in surgery all day. So now we just wait until February 5th a few more weeks to see whats to come next. Thanks for all your continued prayers.

Trusting in His plans....

Over the past few days scott and I have been tested beyond belief and have to make some pretty tough decisions very soon. We havent shared whats been going on with many people because we really didnt get it ourselves. I think we both came to a point a few days ago where we were just physically and emotionally spent. Between job worries for me, health issues, baby issues, and helping with the youth group we just have felt so alone and confused. We know that there is a reason for all of this but we just dont get it. I have often asked God over the past few days, weeks and even months "what in the world are you doing, am i completely missing the point?" We are to a point where we need to make some tough decisions. My job is physically demanding and the 13 hour shifts are rough, so I have began to explore some different job options. I love my job at the hospital, but lets be real i have a chronic health condition that is brought on by stress and the longs shifts and worries of my job right now definitely doesnt help things. We also have been trying to get pregnant again for the past 14 months. Being off birth control and my regular medicine has really taken a toll on my body and not allowed me to have a very good quality of life this past year. We both want another baby so badly but at the same time its not fair to me, macie or scott for me to be sick all the time. This is a huge decision for us because if i go back on birth control we have to move on with our lives and realize we will only have 1 child, and macie will never have a brother or sister which she begs us for all the time:) We are also praying for a youth pastor for the teens of our church. We have loved working with them and being apart of their lives these past few months but its exhausting at the same time. I know God has the perfect man/woman picked out for them we are just pryaing that He would make it clear to us soon. These are tough decisons that we know we cant make on our own so we are asking for the prayers of our friends and family right now. We are trusting in God's plans for our lives and waiting patiently for answers that we dont have the strength or clarity to make. Thanks for all your love and support!!!!!

Peace out 2008.....Hello 2009

Wow what an interesting 2009 its been already. As most of you know i have been in the hospital for the past few days for an ovarian cyst that ruptured and made me pretty sick. This has been an ongoing battle for our family over the past year and has been the cause of many tears and frustrations. We have been trying to get pregnant with another baby for over a year now and have hit road block after road block it seems. We are trusting that God's plans are far better than ours but the battle has still been rough. I heard a song this week for the first time and since then its really stuck with me and really summed up this past year for me and what i want for 2009. Its called "Anyway by Martina McBride" the words are:

You can spend your whole life buildin'
Somethin' from nothin'
One storm can come and blow it all away
Build it anyway

You can chase a dream
That seems so out of reach
And you know it might not ever come your way
Dream it anyway

[chorus]
God is great, but sometimes life ain't good
When I pray it doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway
I do it anyway

This worlds gone crazy and it's hard to believe
That tomorrow will be better than today
Believe it anyway
You can love someone with all your heart
For all the right reasons
An in a moment they can choose to walk away
love 'em anyway

You can pour your soul out singing a song u believe in
but tomorrow they will forget you ever sang
Sing it anyway!

Yeah I sing,
I dream,
I love anyway!

I love this song because we have all faced trials and hardships in life and so many times i think that we get afraid to get back up and press forward. We hide inside ourselves and let our dreams and hopes fade away all because we have been hurt and just are afraid of failure or being let down again. This year there have been many let downs for us and many hardships, but there have also been many blessings beyond anything i deserve!!!!! but so many of the blessings we receive are because we chose to take a chance and to step out on faith and trust in our dreams and our prayers and in our God. I'm holding tight to my dreams this 2009 and believing that although i have been hurt i'm going to dream anyway. Life is about living, learning, loving and dreaming "anyway" Wishing you all an amazing 2009!!!