Trusting in His plans....

Over the past few days scott and I have been tested beyond belief and have to make some pretty tough decisions very soon. We havent shared whats been going on with many people because we really didnt get it ourselves. I think we both came to a point a few days ago where we were just physically and emotionally spent. Between job worries for me, health issues, baby issues, and helping with the youth group we just have felt so alone and confused. We know that there is a reason for all of this but we just dont get it. I have often asked God over the past few days, weeks and even months "what in the world are you doing, am i completely missing the point?" We are to a point where we need to make some tough decisions. My job is physically demanding and the 13 hour shifts are rough, so I have began to explore some different job options. I love my job at the hospital, but lets be real i have a chronic health condition that is brought on by stress and the longs shifts and worries of my job right now definitely doesnt help things. We also have been trying to get pregnant again for the past 14 months. Being off birth control and my regular medicine has really taken a toll on my body and not allowed me to have a very good quality of life this past year. We both want another baby so badly but at the same time its not fair to me, macie or scott for me to be sick all the time. This is a huge decision for us because if i go back on birth control we have to move on with our lives and realize we will only have 1 child, and macie will never have a brother or sister which she begs us for all the time:) We are also praying for a youth pastor for the teens of our church. We have loved working with them and being apart of their lives these past few months but its exhausting at the same time. I know God has the perfect man/woman picked out for them we are just pryaing that He would make it clear to us soon. These are tough decisons that we know we cant make on our own so we are asking for the prayers of our friends and family right now. We are trusting in God's plans for our lives and waiting patiently for answers that we dont have the strength or clarity to make. Thanks for all your love and support!!!!!